Bold, Brave, but Bleeding

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I’ve ‘known’ Shell Vera for a number of years now as a fellow-blogger and recall her being one of the very first to engage with me in a meaningful manner, regarding one of my posts. As a newbie blogger, I appreciated this so much. To date, Shell Vera is still a regular reader and commenter at my blogs, so I had no hesitation about supporting this publication of her creative endeavours.

BOOK REVIEW: When I Stopped Remembering Tomorrow

Hang on I thought, how can someone remember tomorrow – let alone stop remembering it?

I was intrigued from the get go!

Apart from my curiosity over the title, it’s not often we have the pleasure of having a personal insight into the lives and hearts of people we know. Granted, I only ‘know’ Shell Vera as a fellow blogger but it’s still somebody I know a lot better than most authors I’ve read, whether famous or otherwise.

I bought the book.

I loved the book!

And now I’m sharing my response to Shell Vera’s powerful, poetic pieces.

I don’t know about you but when I don’t really know the author, I hardly ever read the front matter, unless it is pertinent to my understanding of the book. Now that I’m a published author and when I’m reading books from fellow bloggers, I peruse these pages with eager anticipation.

I was happy to see a dedication to fellow warriors and overcomers. Well that includes me! So from the short distance of the title to the dedication page, already my attention has been piqued.

But then I felt slightly put off after reading a comment regarding the church, which seemed harsh and unfair, and to which I could not relate  – was I going to like this book after all? Is there more of this kind of thing to come?

I read on.

The long and the short of it is that Shell Vera fell in love, met her true self for the first time and in doing so “truly met God.”

I like the framework.

Part 1 shares poetic pieces about her yesterdays followed by a separate prose section in Part 2, providing background information, or explaining what Shell had sought to convey in those pieces, or providing encouragement to hurting souls who have suffered similar abuse, and feel their dreams are impossible.

Often, we readers interpret poems according to our own, or vicarious experiences, according to literary evaluations, personal perceptions and conclusions, which usually differ to what the author originally meant or intended. It is therefore nice to actually know what the writer had intended to convey.

And now for my assessment of Shell Vera’s creative endeavours (bearing in mind the fact that I am not a poetry expert). I discuss in terms of my personal reactions to her work.

Heartfelt compassion stirs the heart of the reader, and contrasts with the cold uncompromising truth of the writer’s experience in pieces like Alone and Detached (1992): Here’s an example:

This girl has given up hope for the future,

She’s only living still because when she knocked,

Death refused to open the door for her.

Powerful pieces like The Final Nightmare (1999) will haunt you.

And in her poem The Dance (1999), Shell Vera’s beautiful and clever depiction of the dance of life, reminds us that either we ourselves, or the people with whom we tango, can become catalysts of change, for the good.

Her poems make you think. Force you to consider what it is you believe, how you interpret the gospel and how you embrace it within your own life.  After reading Wandering (2012), I wonder, how many of us need to take Jesus down from the cross of our limited imaginations and actually invite him to be a living breathing being in our day-to-day lives?

When you think of warriors, you tend to picture someone strong, staunch and solid, someone tough and triumphant, despite the odds. We think of people like Hercules, or Alexander the Great, or even King David, who was known to have slain his 10,000s.

But in our normal every-day life, particularly as a Christian where there is often pressure to present a false ‘super-spiritual’ picture, a true warrior is someone who faces the rigours and injustices of life and survives. They are warriors because they live to tell the tale. They are victorious overcomers because instead of remaining as downtrodden victims, they drag themselves up from the dust and mire of catastrophe or rejection, and push forward through the doors of hope.

Women of Warfare friends and followers, only when you have truly met and committed your life to the Lord, only when you have engaged in prayer warfare and entrusted your well-being into the hands of your Creator-God, will those negative circumstances of life become a spiritual launching pad, enabling you to soar as victorious overcomers.

So, if you are guilty of doing this, stop wasting your life yearning for tomorrow.

Start living in the present, praying in earnest, and yearning for meaningful spiritual encounters with the God who holds your tomorrow.

Meanwhile, I’d encourage you to buy the book!

Order here

You may visit Shell Vera at her website and blog  

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Start living in the present, praying in earnest, and yearning for meaningful spiritual encounters with the God who holds your tomorrow.

6 thoughts on “Bold, Brave, but Bleeding

  1. Oh Carol…. the tears from my eyes right now. I am so thankful that you didn’t stop with my first comment.

    My heart is for people to see that our struggles don’t mean we are “less Christian”. For them to see that sometimes we can think we know God so well and then something happens and we realize our footing wasn’t on solid rock. For them to see that our journeys are all unique, and yet similar in that we are all working and living for the same goal: To love Jesus with all that we are and to meditate on His teachings and fall deeper in love with Him as we love and engage with the world around us so they can feel His love. For them see a hurt from a local church doesn’t mean His Church is bad. We’re all human and all fail, and while that isn’t an excuse we must accept its reality as we grow together.

    You’ve blown me away with this review. Thank you for taking the time to read my book. As a big fan and blogger friend, sister in Christ, and someone who had loved your heart from the very first post I ever read of yours, thank you so much for sharing this and for your kind words.

    This summary below is where I am today and I’m so thankful. Sharing my story was another step on a road toward sitting at His feet and letting me heal! Thank you for taking part in my journey with your writing and prayers as I’ve prayed the scripture from your book.

    “Women of Warfare friends and followers, only when you have truly met and committed your life to the Lord, only when you have engaged in prayer warfare and entrusted your well-being into the hands of your Creator-God, will those negative circumstances of life become a spiritual launching pad, enabling you to soar as victorious overcomers.”

    With so much love and appreciation,
    ~Shell

    (Typing from my phone so I apologize for any typos.)

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    1. Dear Shell,
      I am so glad the review came to your attention. I wanted to let you know but could not send a message to you at Goodreads. I still struggle with social media.
      I am glad you like my review.
      Absolutely! Struggles do not make us less a Christian. They are opportunities for us to know God better and grow spiritually.
      It was a pleasure to share my thoughts. Just sorry that it took so long.
      Have a blessed weekend 😃

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      1. Are you on Instagram? I’ve often found it hard to connect via the WordPress app as well. I wish for those of us on the platform, it allowed a messaging feature so we could send a quick message. Thank you again Carol. And it was right on time… honestly just what I needed at the right time. He used you faithfully. Thank you!!

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      2. No problem Shell Vera. I’m not on Instagram.
        That is lovely to hear Shell. It always delights my heart to be used by the Lord, and it’s lovely to know that he has used me in a timely way.
        BTW I’ve uploaded a version as a Goodreads review as well.
        Have a blessed weekend! 🙂

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